Woke up early today, realized there’s no school for the little one today, went back to sleep, and walah … before I know it, it was already 10:30am … that’s a good sleep … I haven’t sleep in this long for a while now … It felt good, it’s a good recovery of the tired heart, I felt like I can do anything today, even take on the Himalayas, lol~ Welp, still no coffee in the house … I seriously need to go buy me some … the day is just aint right without a cup of coffee, and I don’t want to lower my self to go for Starbucks, which is the worst coffee in the world, only in my own city back in Malaysia I will drink Starbucks … I wander why … hmmm …
“But every time you hurt me,
the less that I cry And every time you leave me,
the quicker these tears dry And every time you walk out,
the less I love you”
I did, I did completely open to you, without reserve, without holding back, not even a bit, but it was met with some of the cruelest push back, so I stop, I stop sharing the deepest me, the realest me, and I stop giving you the complete me, the brightest me, the darkest me. Every hurt, every pain, every heartache, will slowly, but surely, chip away the love I have for you. It will take a while, but everything has its end and its limit, one day, all my love for you, all the ocean deep and sky high love for you, will be eaten away by your indecisiveness.
Watching a new show on Netflix, it’s freaking DARK!! Right up my alley~ At the same time it’s sweet and funny and freaky, sometimes. The two main characters make such a strong contrast to it’s darkness, a twist on Bonnie and Clyde with a touch of Dexter. Love it! Its the kind of show that I can’t watch with anybody around me, I don’t let people into this part of my soul that easily. Actually, come to think of it, never wanted to, except to one person, it seems unlikely now, but we might still make it, we shall see. I should make friends with some strangers who like this kind of stuff so I am not so lonely in this department~
Not a spoiler, but epi 5 is sweet, probably defined true love better than anything else, and starting from epi 6 and 7, it started to get funny, I mean, it was funny before, but very subtle, they really get it on by 6.
Anywhoo, it’s great so far, hope it will stay that way.